When You Don’t Know What You Want Anymore

“We learn more by looking for the answer to a question and not finding it than we do from learning the answer itself.” ~Lloyd Alexander

There was a time when I looked at the world without hope. My future felt dark because I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I felt like I was a random player in a chaotic game. I didn’t like it, and I didn’t like life. Luckily, I stumbled onto resources, ideas, and practices that helped me reconnect to my wisdom, my heart, and my interests. I applied what I learned, and clarity emerged. I’ll share what happened and how I gained clarity, but in order to do that, let’s start at the beginning.
The Problem

The problem wasn’t that I didnt know what I wanted to do. It was thinking that I should know what I want. When I think I should know, I put pressure on myself. I feel stressed out, and I feel like I’m not good enough because I haven’t got life figured out. When I accept the present moment as it is, it frees up a tremendous amount of energy. When I stop resisting, I can start living. When I look back at the darkest moments in my life, not only do I see their purpose, but I also see that, deep down, I always knew what step to take next. But at the time I couldn’t see this because my vision was clouded by my fears. Continue reading.

Originally posted on Tiny Buddha.